I Want to be Great

I do. I'm sorry, but I'd be lying if didn't say it so...

Is it wrong? Is it uncommon? Hell, is it down right unhealthy? No, Yes, No...(Your answers may vary) That's just the way I feel, work, operate, think, move, react, but never in with a closeness to greatness, always a pursuit.

I may be a bit emotional, and by that I mean buzzed, but I just finished watching 44 minutes of good old, and I mean old, Barbara Walters, in her annual Oscar night special. But as someone still very new to "the business" I find it extrodinary helpful to hear those speak upon issues of their past, how they beat the odds, how they fought through every hardship to truly rise to the top of their field.

Some may say, trying to "make it big" is crazy and phase one should grow out of - like being an F.B.I. Agent or a marine biologist. To some extent, I wholeheartedly agree. After all, "making it big" has zero to do with being great or being successful. I just want to be clear, I do not want TMZ fame or accolades, I just want to be great at what I do, whatever that comes to be. I want to work hard, meet good people, make the right choices, and never be afraid, of anything.

Never Gonna Let You Down

So this may be the only millisecond that I have to write today, so it's gonna be a quickie.

However it's going to be a goodie...

Hope you enjoy!

Holy Shit, I'm going to Africa!

All right, so it's a mission trip of sorts, so maybe I should have omitted the "Shit," but shit, I'm going to Africa!!! (Damn, I did it again.)

I have known about this trip for roughly 4-5 months now, and it's not until July, but today I had to fill out my application online. Application, you ask? Is Africa currently taking applications? Well, in a sense, yes...I am going on Christian-oriented mission trip in which my childhood and current best friend Ashlie is leading.

http://africainjuly.blogspot.com/

She was my first girlfriend in 8th grade and is obviously still very close to my heart. Hell, I was in her wedding, although on the groom's side -- I look like shit in a strapless dress. (Damn, I did it again).

She has been married for over three years now and unable to conceive. Sad, yes, but not for her, and not for the hundreds if not thousands of lives she is or has already affected because of her choice to adopt! She's one of those amazing people who seems to excel at everything. You know the type! Damn, overachievers!

When filling out the application, I hit a moral speed bump of sorts. In order to be approved for the trip, two letters of reference are needed - no problem, I have a ton of reference sources, right? Wrong! I need two letters from a pastor, church leader, bible study leader, etc. I just counted over 385 contacts in my phone and not a single listing under God.

Yellow Pages anyone? Google, maybe?

Keep reading to find out if my heathen butt gets to Africa!

I'm back, and it feels kind of funny.

I mean, not funny like 'haha,' but funny like I have not done this in a very long time. I'm less worried about regaining readers, and more worried about not being able to find my voice, my tone, my goods, if you will.

I am not sure why I stopped writing in the first place. I only know it's like anything else in life, if it's hard or challenging, it's probably worth doing. It made absolutely no sense to quit writing my story when I did...My story being my life, no fiction needed.

I had just quit my job in advertising, to 'make it big' in the world of TV - as a TV host thank you very much! I would wait tables to pay the bills, while diving head(shot) first into the business that is simply known The Business.

Well good news and bad news: The bad news, I'm still waiting tables - the good news, I am the host of "Tap That," an online show that is all about the world of beer. Check it out @ www.tapthatny.com

More good news, I own a production company, with an amazing business partner I met while waiting those before mentioned tables and we've recently signed a development deal with a much larger production company here in NYC.

I'm not quite sure what the structure of this little blog is going to be, so bare with me in the beginning...baby steps.

Thanks for reading!